Musings of a 92'

We are the broken chords holding this together. The timeless threads fabricating this story untold. The wind whispered in our ears and the songs the daisies breathe. We are the cloudy wisps of dreams woven with tears and toils and soils. The love ached from every memory and every shattered lost. We are the hope built on castles of sands and the footprints walked by every star we gaze. The things unsaid and the words unheard floats and tumbles. We are the October days and the quiet thoughts. Of paper books and paper hearts and this grey line drawn so thin.

Spotlight's on me.

I want to dance and sing and shine like a star

Spotlight's trained on me.

I want to glitter and sparkle and act like a child.

Spotlight shines on me.

I want to laugh and cry and shimmer like gold.

But maybe just maybe I'll just sit and stare back.

Maybe cry at the fact that the spotlight's too bright.

Dissolve and dull in comparison to life.

Hide back in shadows where it resides no light.

That's my lesson for this week. Or this month. My lesson.

Forgiveness.

But that's the simple truth.

Jesus didn't do anything wrong. Yet he died for us.

God didn't do anything wrong. Yet he forgave us. Over and over and over again.

You may not think you have done anything wrong. Yet you forgive. Simply because God gave you grace. God gave you mercy. God forgave you over and over. What else can you do but be humbled and in return, forgive others through the boundless forgiveness you yourself have received.

It's only logical. Only those who have been loved abundantly will know how to love abundantly. Only those who have been forgiven abundantly, will know how to forgive abundantly. And God love and forgave us abundantly, so we have no excuse.

Its like the analogy with the cup. Imagine you're a cup, and you're being filled with water, you're filled to the max, and still more water is flowing in. Soon, the water is displaced and water starts trickling out. As more water is being filled in, more water flows out. As much as the water is poured in, the same is poured out.

Luke 6:36

Be merciful. Just as your Father was merciful.

The verse is so simple. So very simple. But yet so very hard.

I remember sharing this some time ago. And right after that, God put me to the test I guess. I failed miserably.

Forgiveness. Even if you don't think you're in the wrong. Even if they aren't sorry. You forgive. Because that's what Jesus do.

"What would Jesus do?" was the mantra that I learnt from Derick. And I mean this as no joke. Derick was the one beside me, helping me. Honestly and sincerely, God spoke the most to me through him.

Pride. Anger. Humiliation. Hurt.

Its hard to break through those barriers, those dams. But what would Jesus do? Forgive, forget, love.

It's hard doing something that's unmerited, undeserved.

Its hard. Oh man I know its hard. The longest grudge I've ever held is six years. Six. But I got to learn.

This is my lesson to learn.

Forgiveness.